♫ ♬ ♪ ♩ ♭Shine - Life is what I choose √ ミ●﹏☉ミ

It is about divorce. When I hear someone right next to me told me that she divorced before, I felt hurt.

Today, got out of class early than usual, around 8. So I drove to Santa Monica 3rd Street's Apple store to get the iWeb problem solved for my domain website. Hopefully it will work, I just changed the domain host website. While I got off freeway, driving on the regular street to the Wilshire, I saw the cute stars and balls decoration on the trees. It was quite cute. It reminded me the Christmas, last year was the same, last last year was the same. On the 3rd Street, all of the trees have the kinds bright and blue lights wrapped around their body. Reminded me Christmas again. All of the stores are decorated with Christmas color. With this economy depression, I did not quite feel the holiday atmosphere. It was nice of driving to Santa Monica tonight accidently. It was a relief for me from my busy schedules. I like the bright light places at dark night. It feels bright inside, it feels positive. One day, I plan to bring a date to L.A. County Museum of Art at night. It will be such a romantic night! Great Plan!

Recently, every time, when I was in the UV buying for my lunch, my heart always expected that he would be there, expected that he would possibly see me and stop me.
That is the kind of expectation that I have not had for a long time.
Remember, when I was at high school, the expectation of being in the same place with one of many hims.
But, I will just maintain this expectation. I like to maintain this expectation.
Because I know he gives me too many nos.
I do not need that in my personal relationship life anymore.
My life: school, and work.  I always have to be polite and be prepared whatever answers or questions others may throw at me.
However, when I am out of school or work, on the weekend, I do not need to be prepared for anything.
All I want is to relax, and let everything to be just perfect, and no surprise, just goes with the flows, goes with the expectations.

Okay, here is the list of requirement that I should do, and what I should not do.
Do list:
Always do things ahead for both work

Not Do list:
Do not go to my personal email, such as usc email
Do not go to do my own web search or class homework at work

I am ready to scream!
Fucking dame it