Today, the nice lady helped me to get some hot water when she saw I was couffing.

OMG, today is soooooo windy!

Okay, I want to be single, but my date does not want me to be single, what should I do???

Okay, today is good day again. I am going to upload some previous pic about my cooking and new pretty apartment. Okay, not here is some my apartment pic. The last one is my college! inside of it! I like it!

I have heard so many people told me they felt the big culture differences between Chinese culture and American Culture. I did not believe so, but now I felt it strongly. Does it ever happen that a Chinese and an American could date and work out very well and then be together, and then get married? Dies that ever happen? I guess so, this world is so big and there are so many ppl on it. so I am sure it applies to someone. Oh, well, that is very lucky of them. It has not worked for me so far.

A couple of things I would like to say: HULU, I found that on USC website, never notice before The med. info, is so interesting! Did you write it? Have not found you are so funny!

Now I am totally a happy person now! I enjoy my life and love my life, and love people surrounding me! Okay, catch up with my HW! I do not have to feel the uncomfortable feeling when I have someone and could not be with someone! I love my life now. Okay, enjoy it! HW, HW, catch up!

Today is a great day. Now I need to get on my ass and start to do my work. I had Chinese lesson for Jack, if I did not remember his name wrong. And then I saw a friend and hiked near Getty Center. Just a great day.

This is the fresh flower I bought from farmer's market a few weeks ago. I like them the best. So far, my favorite color roses this year. These roses match my sheets as well! How perfect!

I think I like single life better and more than couple life. It feels so much better during the time of taking a break with Chris. I do not have to be afraid or be upset whenever I ask him to go out to my friends' party, and getting a no answer. I do not have to concern that he does not like to have my hand when we walk together. Because I am free on the street, and I am myself, I do not need anyone's hand. I do not have to get upset when he gets frustrated about I have no idea where to eat or what movie to watch. I do not have to worry about not getting picked-up phones calls from him anymore. I do not have to get upset when he goes out for a hike, or a run, or a bike ride himself without asking me whether I would like to join ANY MORE! I do not have to ...... So much relief! The most important, I do not have to tell him how much I like flowers to except him to buy any flowers for me anymore. Because I buy flowers for myself. They are fresh! They are refreshing! They are beautiful! Yes, they do go away, but they have their beautiful moment and I was there taking care of them when they were growing up and beautiful. It is sad that it seems not working between me and him. He is such a nice guy and tried his best. But both of us have totally different personality! Just came back from the tailgate party for tomorrow's football. The food was good, and I cooked Tomato with Tofu. Yammee. Good night.

So, since I do not have any friends to hike with me, I decide to hike myself on Sunday morning. I work up around 8 and took a quick shower and get dressed and drove to Topanga Mountains for hike. Wow, I spent more than 2 hours for hiking. It is not easy. On the way back, I saw the farmer's market and found a parking near by and bought some fresh vegetables: carrots, bok choy, green onion, and tomato. All of these only cost me $7, which is really good. Maybe....... I do not know. I also tasted a lot of fruit while I was shopping in the farmer's market. I also saw a lot of shops around farmer's MARKET. I wish I could go there for brunch on my weekend with friends or future boyfriend, or future husband. Then I came back to my apartment and took another shower because I sweat a lot during my hike. Then I came to Peet's for my study. Mat is working and I do not like him because he is not serious while he is working! He is texting! OMG! Okay, go back to study for next week midterm. Above is the mountain hiking trail in Vancouver. Today's trail reminded me there. But LA is so dry, not a lot of water in the mountains. I really wish I could go to Yosemite Soon because I heard over there is just like Vancouver's mountains. Good luck to me and best to everyone. Just had a late lunch with Chris. Last time I did not pay for the dinner and I was about to return the money back to him ($14.50) This time, he brought that up and said he paid last time, which indicating I should pay for it. Jesus Christ, he does not need to tell me. I just really can not handle and hang out with him any more. I am also glad i brought up the hundreds of dollars I lent to him, and he told me he forgot about it! Another jesus christ! How can he forget hundreds of dollars he borrowed from someone else? But, you know what, in the future, I will not lend any money to him anymore, NEVER EVER for him!

Today I earned $30 bucks! That is a good news. There is a problem between me and Chris, and I do not really want to call or text him right now. Hopefully I will study with Carol tonight. Nothing special, but I do need appeal my parking ticket from school. Good luck to me. A few days ago, just paid $60 for another parking ticket. OMG, really broke. Good luck to me on finding a long term internship, which potentially lead to a full time position. It is not easy, so I need really work hard on it. Tonight, I guess I will spend hours on studying my real estate law book for the next week coming midterm. Nervous about it very much ~_~ Okay, I am going back to study for the real estate law

I have not been here for a while. Recently I have been really stressed. VERY stressed. But the good thing is I have my own little place to stay And I am really wearing out of my patient for Chris and his own behavior. I really can not stand it anymore. Why could not he ask me for a hike or anything he does! I always do. Jesus Christ!

Everything has not been easy recently. Job hunting is tough. There are some part time job available, but it is not what I expected or related to my major or paid. or whatever Chris could not understand me, he always misses my calls or respond my text so late. I guess he does not care much about me. He says he does a lot. But I do not feel like it a lot of times. Today or yesterday I read a story, a girl did not feel the boy cares about her that much because he will never pick up or respond her calls when he is busy doing something. That is the exactly same situation with mine. If he is with his friends for fun, for drink, for party, he will on purpose not pick up my calls. When he is with his Mom, he will not pick it up either. He will only text me long time after my missed calls. Once in a while, he did pick up when he was with his mom, not never friends. That is the part I do not get it. Why? I always pick up his calls even when I am with friends for anything. Really do not like this. I guess I just care too much about him than the depth he cares about me. it is not balanced, so it is not going to work out. I am very sad about and really I just have been very sad about the job I got right before school started. I though it would be great. but ppl never talked about the rate of pay, and they have other work study student, which could work more hours because of federal fundings. It is just a crucial fact. I am facing a reality that I have to be better and more outstandings than citizens, otherwise ppl will not want to employ me.

I hate the situation I hate him i hate his situation I hate he complains I hate he argues I hate he complains I hate coming over to his place I hate to see his Mom I hate everything he has I just hate it I hate to date anyone Trouble Just trouble ~

Tonight I watched the movie District 9. Such a good wonderful movie!

I think it is a bad sign. He did not say it directly, but I know it. He says he need to get relaxed after work. So that means I do not help him to get relaxed. So if I can not help him get relaxed, it is not love. At least I do no think so. Okay, need to get back to submit my resume and cover letter. Good luck to me about finding a job.

OMG, it has been so hard of find a nice place to live with my reasonable price. And be honest, I really do hate credit cards! I found I am using a lot more money than I do in cash. Okay, I do not know what I will do anymore. So sad...... What should I do? Should I go back to work for her? Should I pay extra money to live with my previous lovely place??? OMG, really to yell!