Recently, every time, when I was in the UV buying for my lunch, my heart always expected that he would be there, expected that he would possibly see me and stop me.
That is the kind of expectation that I have not had for a long time.
Remember, when I was at high school, the expectation of being in the same place with one of many hims.
But, I will just maintain this expectation. I like to maintain this expectation.
Because I know he gives me too many nos.
I do not need that in my personal relationship life anymore.
My life: school, and work.  I always have to be polite and be prepared whatever answers or questions others may throw at me.
However, when I am out of school or work, on the weekend, I do not need to be prepared for anything.
All I want is to relax, and let everything to be just perfect, and no surprise, just goes with the flows, goes with the expectations.